“Poesy where have you been? You disappeared! I have not seen you for more than 10 years..”
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“My life took a great shift. I simply couldn’t keep up with the lifestyle. Things that used to excite me has lost its appeal and my highest purpose now baits me. It was a painful transformation at first and then God showed His face to me - but I had to fall down again and again before I could recognize Him. I picked myself up in whatever way possible. Then I needed to survive. You see, the kinda money you spend on dining out, I spend on extending my art practice globally. I’ve been showing up outside my comfort zones for the last 15 years. Sometimes the bill we incur from a night of fine wines is equivalent to the monthly salary of someone who works for me. I’m responsible for a handful of people and I cherish the appointment. It became a conscious decision to invest in relationships that doesn’t require a lot of money. On friends who would call me on the phone and we could talk for hours. Time is more expensive than money. I find it precious to brain-walk together to a place where our hearts could find refuge in one another. Meantime I’m so immobile these days, important friendships happen with people who would remove all barriers to see me. My friendships tend to select themselves. Kindness is more expensive than time. I am welcomed in some places and I funnel my gratitude into a personal growth to stay worthy where I’m wanted. Deep connections naturally happen with people who are drawn to cultivate potential and possibilities, people who actively resolve themselves. This is how my VIP list grows. We are not the folks who could feed on inner conflict. I’m not rich like before, I’m an artist, I’m not poor, I’m just careful. I want to spend wisely and be a good steward of God’s wealth that He continues to entrust in my hands. His abundance has been designed into my life in a circular flow. Abundance starts with generosity. Now we cross paths again, but I’m far different from the person whom I was when champagne sales spiked everywhere I went. I like myself better now, I have high quality people in my life, people who are easy to love and I’m busy for the right reasons. It doesn’t require money to be loved truly but this requires a sincerity that money cannot afford. I hear a calling that many may find challenging to give attention to, and I don’t seek approval from most people. That’s the artist in me, it’s a huge blanket career. This is the most exciting part of my adventure! My high priority relationships are kept in a way that I will not have regrets if my time here was cut short and I have to return to Jesus tomorrow. I acknowledge this as a tremendous blessing. I’m always thankful to bump into old friends again, and I’m willing to make a stroll through your hopes and dreams one day - and see if we were meant to merge ways now. Life has a beautiful way to show you God’s love when you pull close to Him and honour Him by loving people. This season my heart is full, but it is in pain. I’m touched by people who persists in my life. The heart counts for everything. THANK YOU.”